Get out of my head...for my own sake..

Lately I've been thinking a lot about past relationships in my fairly short life. They'll stay nameless. But the thing is, I don't really know why I've been doing this. Maybe it's because Valentines Day is almost here..I know my buddy and his lady aren't helping me in any way. I want more than anything to have what they have again.

The First; She was my first. my first everything. When people say you'll always remember your first love, it's true. We didn't exactly have a good relationship, but I spent 4 years of my life doing what I could for her and for us. The fact that I won't forget makes me wonder...I know that I'm over things, but it bothers me a little that she does run around in my thoughts occasionally (a lot more as of late). I don't know whether to be mad about it, or just kind of accept it.

On to number 2; She was a short fling. Fling is being used lightly here. She wasn't a fling, more of a short sweet relationship. We came together and fell apart. And I don't know why, but I hung on a bit longer afterwards. I guess it's just my nature. I think I'm ok with it now though.

And 3; The one freshest in my mind...Just listen to "Summer Skin" by Death Cab for Cutie. Take a trip to Europe and come back falling for a girl. It was good. I just don't know how to handle myself with it. She left her guy, to go out with me, then left me to go back to him. Strange, eh? And I still don't know how it went down.

There's my rant. Enjoy. Comment...whatever. I know I'm just talking to myself here.